the second time...

hye to those who follow my blog and read every update, thank for listening to my story ...

Yesterday was the second time , I felt that i lost someone that I love , the situation was so similar, again it happened. I can't help it to cry out loud, this time I even mad with everyone surrounding that is involved. No one will know how hurt it is , they kept blaming me for being so 'me' , as i know people just can't stand my attitude ...next time I'm just got to remind people and tell me how is my dark side where people hate me for it .

I was so sad , that even his best friend scolded me for being like this and said I will always be like this forever, being alone no one will care :) Seriously today was the worst day, I kept on crying , people keep telling me not worthy but for me simple as long you love and be there for me and people will just know what i like and not if your close... No one knows how much i done  but keep blaming me for scolding them like how my mum did , scolded me , hmm i guess i can't changed it ....

WHat is Love means ? seriously is so damn hurtful , this time teruk , if you can said it hurt you , try being me :) He said he needs time... Stresses out .....hurtful..... plz understand .... but me?? Atleast the friends being there with him which previously also being friend with me does not even support us... wow....

As I'm writting my tear kept falling down... no one really knows how suffering it is , omg GOD plz help me , I can't stand where he win with his friends around with him to fight ... me i'm left alone again  as usual... omg God am I that bad to even have my closest friend ....I have been tahaning as well sometimes worst i still tahan why can't you? Isn't LOVE is love the way you are ? No matter hw bad is it ? For once I'm sure of myself that when it comes to this I just stay together no matter what.

Actually I'm like my mom , no matter how the guy hurt her , she stills there with my papa, my papa did many wrong but my mum still be with my papa and love him even though they kept on fight :) I proud to be like my mum, what's wrong with that ? Isn't you said will stay on.....You said you never leave ....

I'm so sad and hurt .......sometimes it's so hard :( No one can help me with this...



Love,
Me (ZL)